📜 Caption :

💫Dec 29 2020💫

Final full moon of the year
Gemini walks with Cancer
As the year started
It ended
We began defensive
Ending the year defended
When the smoke clears
Who stands by your side
Who came to your aide
The light of the candle guides
Soft and warm, gentle and sweet
Tonight we feel
Face paint wards away demons
I look to the left
Gaze with intent
No longer with fear
Doubt clouds
Blow it away
Through my armor I feel
Through my cracks I feel
Through my scars I feel
Through my body I feel
I feel
I feel
I feel
Through myself I feel

🪞 Reflection:

I lived in such a state of high anxiety about the world. We have to stop this, stop that, stop stop stop. I had to go go go, one goal to the next, it felt like a never ending sprint.

The lockdowns hit, I was in recovery. The lockdown was extended and I found a job. Throughout that time, 2020 through 2022, I was indoors mostly. I spent the majority of my time drinking, smoking, and praying while making art. I get mixed responses when I tell people but for the most part people are understanding because they were doing the same thing.

I would stay up in my room, turn off the main lights and turn on my night lights. Sometimes I’d be up talking to friends online, we would all be drunk and high. Other times I’d be raving alone with my headphones on. I would always have candles on, the nights felt so cold. The combination of night lights and candles had such a profound effect on me. I was finally in control of my environment. I would start to pray.

Let this feeling last for as long as it can
When the feeling is done let it return when I need to heal

All the things that kept me happy and alive during the pandemic are still in my life. I feel less afraid of the world than before since I became more aware of other entities that influence our lives. I try to work with them rather than against. I’ve simplified my desires but increased the quality threshold. My prayers keep me happy, grounded. My prayers help me feel like a human.

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