📜 Caption :

Today I’m a monk under a steaming waterfall.
The heat.
The heat.
Boils my skin and makes me sweat.
The burn.
The burn.
How the droplets burn.
A sweet sensation.
Gestating through heat.
The old is peeling.
The dirty is sloughing.
I’m listening to the inner workings.
The flow.
The flow.

🪞 Reflection:
I learned about meditation when I was about 9-10 years old. It didn’t make too much sense to me that one could empty their mind, I was young and I had so many thoughts and questions.

I remember laying down in the shower, eyes closed, for what seemed to be hours. My mind would wander.

I played a lot of Video Games. I would imagine forested worlds, getting lost, getting found by lovers of the forest. I would imagine dark homes; each step was creaky and unsettling. I would imagine traveling outer space, floating around in mid-air, alone and lonely.

I had such an imagination that was inspired by what I saw. I remember seeing a scene in a piece of media. A monk character meditating underneath a waterfall, a trope for sure. I longed to recreate that scene in the home space, my childhood experience was very chaotic. I longed for peace.

I had developed a habit of long showers, sitting and becoming pruned.

I would spend time sitting in the tub as the shower head released a steaming hot rain. My mind would wander less and focus on the physical feeling. When the feeling became too much I would lay down in the water and watch my hair swim.

I didn’t realize that what I was trying to do was soothe my anxiety of becoming aware that I am an alive thing, an alive thing that can witness and observe, an alive thing that can speak and manipulate, an alive thing with memory.

My family would often tease me for my hour long showers, and would say that I lived in the restroom. In truth, I voluntarily spent a lot of time in the restroom in solitude to process my life thus far.

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